i am zayne

lover of: music and words,thunderstorms and full moons,mountains and sweet breezes,poetry and prose,nursery rhymes and firelights.

Saturday, March 26, 2005

The Little I Know

03/26/2005

It’s a beautiful full moon night in the neighborhood made even more lovely by the sounds of Over the Rhine’s new release, "Drunkard’s Prayer" invading the soundwaves of my home. The disk arrived by mail today and is proving to be perfect full moon music.

The CD is filled with songs of heartbreak, near loss, and reconciliation. "Little Did I Know" has forced a tear into my eye on repeated listens. I love it when a song touches something inside of me. I love it more when I was unaware that place was there waiting to be touched. The uncovering gives me hope that I am still able to learn – that I am still growing emotionally and maybe this story is not yet over.

Though not married, I can relate so much to the lyrics of this song. Instead of the husband & wife dynamic, my heart and mind are taken to my life and understanding of who Jesus is. Kind of timely in this Easter season.

Every now and again, I am reminded of how tightly Jesus holds me and how tightly I am gripping Him back. Sadly, I am not always conscious of this mutual hold. Sometimes I let go but He, the ever patient One, waits at the bottom to catch me before I hit upon the sharp rocks and into the drowning pools.

Little do I know how much He loves me. My emotions feel so alien and primitive. Hopefully one day soon, I will get a real clue without having to feel the earth quake beneath me. I’ve viewed life without the One who first loved me I really don’t want to go back.

Peace,
zss


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Little Did I Know
(Bergquist/Detweiler)

Little did I know
That I almost let you go
Until I caught a glimpse of life
without you

Little did I know
How deep these roots had grown
Until I felt the earth quake here
without you

And this ache is gonna break me love
Until you come back home
Right or wrong
There is no home
without you

And these eyes are never gonna dry
I never knew how I could cry
Until I thought I'd really lost you

Little did I know that I almost let you go
Until I caught a glimpse of life
without you